No Thanks

I don't want any more sad stories! Why can't the world be more peaceful? Little unkind words hurt somebody everyday. Everybody needs to grow up of course including me. haha

Tomorrow will be a rainy day, and I'm wondering if it's a good idea to go take pictures with the new camera again. Since I bought it, I've brought it with me whenever I go out. I've been trying to take pictures of something nice that exists in our daily lives.♥ I wanna take pics of cats now. There're many stray cats living peacefully around my neighbors. I saw one of them yesterday, and he is too chubby to a stray cat! He must get much food from kind old ladies and kids. haha I've once given a piece of Kamaboko to a kitten hiding under a car. I was like "hey, kitty c'mon, don't be afraid, this's a yummy kamaboko!" then he scratched me and took the kamaboko away from me. :( It hurt a bit but he looked happy when he was eating it. :3

I like it when I'm made happy by little things, cause I can feel that life is not that bad. haha

BGM: Inside In/Inside Out -The Kooks (love this album!♥)

Yea, yea, yea.

I started facebook on Nov. I've once made an account for it when I was in high, but didn't use much and deletede it. Now, I'm enjoying it but I sometimes feel it's like a masturbation. haha It's okay though, cause I like myself now.♥ haha SNS sites are like to make people get to know you and more like...umm self-satisfaction and narcissism? ah, whatever. I got bored of this topic myself. lol

I went out for taking pics with my new camera today. Can't wait to develop it! I actually took a pic of myself with the camera. I'm so curious what kinda look it'd get with the wide lens camera. :) Only if it doesn't look terrible, I'd put it on my facebook or here!♥

Since the winter holiday started, I've been feeling so much emptiness. Need something or someone to fill the hole in my mind. I believed that we can make it came true what we can imagine, but it seems difficult. Life is getting harder little by little, and only having fun doesn't make me happy cause that's not exactly what I want. We sometimes/often get lost and struggle to figure out what you really want, or who you are. If you think too much, you'd reach the big question of the meaning of your life. I know that thinking of it doesn't really lead me to a good conclusion though. Still we think, dream and believe. Hmm, maybe that's the life! haha

I just need my new Dr.Martens!!
A pair of boots with flower patern, and something from DIVA.

Bye bye to The Happy Holiday aka Xmas.

The end of Xmas day everybody! Hope you had fun. :)
Sadly, I studied for a half of day. A teacher of a psychology class is not nice to handed out us two papers during the holiday! I gotta see one movie out of some movies that he nicely listed for us. Also I gotta read a book on psychology for one of the papers. I picked a book on what is conscious. Ahhh whatsoever! I have to finish them up during this winter holiday anyway right away..cause I wanna focus on 4 final exams on Jun.

OKAY! let's stop showing how busy I am. haha

Today, I found a guy doing a cool job. It's Danny North. http://www.dannynorth.co.uk/
He's a music photographer, and works for NME, Front, Rock Sound and Spin. He's been tons of gigs and festivals in the U.K.! He must be happy to have such a job. haha




Ahh, today was full of music and I felt much power of music! Music is just so amazing and fascinating. That's what moves me all the time. I've learnt many things through music. Of course what music teached me mainly is love. haha All young men and women, we always dream, dream and put the dreams in the songs!! That's why you can feel dream, peace or love through music. And, I realised how John Lennon was amazing at expressing love in simple words for the 2nd time.

Words are sometimes meaningless.

Music can talk 100 times better than words. haha

I miss you, I miss him, I miss her and I miss everybody! Much love to all of yoooouuu!! from me. heh :3 haha

I want my chemical that explodes against each other. Only creative people can have it, I believe.

gaaawwwd!!!

Now, this is the almost end of 2009. Time to make a decision, and I did! At the very begining of the next year, I'd like to welcome my new feeling toward him as a friendship. I've kept saying this that I don't want to be in a romantic relationship til I go to where I want to and make an achievement over there. My dream need to be come true by me. Mmm, sounds miserable. haha but it's okay cause there's nothing better than being friends.

btw, I bought a toy camera which is called wide lens camera. You can take pics with vivid coulour...meaning you can't take views with natural colours as you see. I like it, cause I like to make something real into unreal, unusual or surreal. I'm a daydreamer. haha

Devon Aoki down here! beautiful. :)

Girls I like

Let me write about girls I like todaaaay.
My favourite + famous girls for now are Dita Von Teese and Devon Aoki. ♥ I like Naomi Shimada and Irina Lazareanu as well, but not as much as the two.

Today's post is for Dita Von Teese!
If you're a guy, you'll definitely enjoy this. Even if you're a girl, you'll be able to enjoy this as well. :)

Dita Von Teese is the perfect woman I've ever seen in my life! She's a burlesque queen. She's not that young, but has an amazing body. I'm just thinking of getting her picture collection book now. haha


This is damn beautiful! the colour of this pic is so sensual. :)


She looks like an old hollywood actress. ♥


I love her hairstyle. I just have no idea how she keeps it in that way. haha


She looks like a French actress on this pic. haha and look at her waist! just "woa".


Her body is just so perfect!

So, how were the pics? Don't you think she's perfect? I'm just so happy that she lives in my time. haha I like the way she is, really. She seems to care about how she looks all the time and to pay attention to herself head to toe.

I'll put some pics of Devon Aoki on the next post. :)

A guy said to me "So long." in my dream I had last night. What was it? and who was he?

What Is On My Mind

• go to a place where nobody knows me
• be in the theatre for a whole day, and see old movies
• forget about everything romantic
• grab you by the hair and hang you up from the heaven...or drag you to the devil
• go take pictures alone, pictures of mainly people I don't know and sweet animal.
• clean up my room
• stop trying to change or fix my personality
• be in my zone with music for a whole day to feel miserable
• blood, blood, blood on our hands
• go shopping
• say "hi" and "bye" to my friends

I guess these are what's on my mind for now. Whatever I do, it'll make me feel miserable. I don't need bad endings anymore. I only need and want my happy ending. I'm tired and sleepy. Byeeee. :)

The Mighty Boosh!!! what? you don't know? Damn!

Since I started being interested in the British funniest and most brilliant comedy show 'The Mighty Boosh', I've never actually met someone who also likes it. That Is A Shame. I'd loooove to make new booshians around me SO! I'm gonna put some videos of my favourite moments or songs in the boosh today.♥
Well, of course there's no Japanese subtitle..but feel it! Language doesn't really matter. If it suits your sense of humour, let me know! I'm gonna lend you my DVD box of the boosh and tell you how amazing and unique it is. haha

Before watching videos, there're some informations about characters in the boosh.

Vince Noir: a cute stylish cockney boy. a music lover. doesn't like Jazz. played by Noel Fielding.
Howard Moon: a self-esteem guy. likes jazz. thinks he is genius and can do anything. a chatterbox. played by Julian Barrat
Naboo: a shaman. helps Vince and Howard all the time reluctantly. played by Michael Fielding.
Bollo: urm...a gorilla from Zoonivers. Naboo's partner. learning English with porn mags. often says "I've got a bad feeling about this." played by Dave Brown

and Bob Fossil!! there is only one word to represents him. ANNOYING. he is just so annoying, and I like it. haha if there's an annoying guy, it is Bob Fossil.
Bobby Bob Bob..


The guy in the blue uniform is annoying and lovely Bob Fossil. :)


The internet is a powerful tool these days!


"I'm gonna turn my back on you" that is Naboo. :)


Vince's white cells.


'I did a shit on your mom'. what a song! but i have to admit that the lyric is funny. haha

Okay, I'm done for today! Hope you like them! or at least one of them.♥

Please

Don't let me down.

Can you kill this feeling, please?

I don't think I can take it anymore.

They tell me not to rush, but there is no time people.

It is just getting far away from me.

So hard to reach.

I missed many things

and it's too late to regret.

This is me

I'm having a special feeling that's growing in my mind. It scares me a bit, cause I've never had it before. It is scary to lose something esp when that something is becoming an important thing to you.

Do you agree with this saying?
"Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

Me? I don't know, but I can say that I'm trying not to get hurt by someone. Of course you can't avoid it though.
Ahhh, I'm so moody now!

You are the sun, you are the only one
My heart is blue, my heart is blue for you
Be my, be my, be my little rock&roll queen yeah
Be my, be my, be my little rock&roll queen
(listening to Rock&Roll Queen -The Subways♥)

Across the Universe

I decided to write the final paper later and, watched the DVD of Across the Universe today! It's such an amazing movie! When I first saw it in the theater, I felt something inside of me has been changed by the story. It got me to think about what life is. Yes, such a huge topic. haha Everything that could happen in your life was put together and shown in the movie. I just love it! I actually avoided to see it again on DVD even though I bought it as soon as it came out. I guess it's because I thought it might have been less fascinating than seeing it in the theater, but I was wrong. :) It's still fascinating on DVD! It made me think about my life again. haha I thought that I haven't been having my life properly. Well, I mean, I haven't been able to feel what's happening around me. I should be more sensitive, or I'll miss something important in my life, notice it later and regret alone.

and of course, this movie always gets me to think about the ideas of all you need is love and Love & Peace! I don't care even if that souds kinda gay. haha

I'm sick of violence. Much love, all around!♥

I'm done.

Okay. I'm done with all of my stupid imaginations.
Is it too late to realize it? I dunno. Anyway, I'm sure that it is too early to give up. I don't like giving up, cause it's just so easy to do. I gotta be more tough..to survive in England, y'know? haha
I gotta be careful and pay more attention to those who care for me. I've got amazing friends.
They cheer me up and tell me there's no need to worry.
um, i know I've been writing something vague here, but you can't help it! cause I can't make up my mind about the matter at all. ahaha
Life is hard, life is hard..but that's the way it is!

Anyway, I was shocked at my score on the last TOEFL test. I always can't beat my stroooong sleepiness during the test esp listening section. :3

You never know who went through what. That's why you gotta be careful.

Low, but music..♥

I've been stuck in a maze! I sometimes get closer to the way out, but suddenly get back to the middle of the maze..and start brooding about the matter again.
This's like never ending! and I'm kinda tired of it. :(
Need to speak my mind or I'm gonna explode! Bottling up is not good for your health. Hmm.

but there's something excites me. For the 1st time, I saw a music video of 'I Cut Like A Buffalo'!
It really got me. SO amazing that I can't stop watching it again and again.
The Dead Weather is like a super band. I'm not really a big fan of White Stripes or The Kills, but what Jack White does is always cool, and tempting to me. Plus, Alison's a great singer and performer.
Just Check it.


How amzing he and the band are! I actually haven't ordered their album yet. Yes, I made a big mistake not to get it when it came out. Stooopid! I'm gonna get it anyway.
I'm jealous of people who are going see them in Tokyo next month. can't believe that they're not coming to Osaka!!
I think Alison is the coolest woman who looks gorgeous with cigarettes in the world, since I saw a video of 'Hang You Up From the Heaven'. ♥

A Sweet Movie

I just finished watching DVD "Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist"...



Ahhhhh, that is such a cute movie!
I'm a fun of Michael Cera, and romantic comedy movies. ♥
The story is based on a novel which's the same title as the movie. It's kinda similar to American Grafity. High School students, about to finish school, fall in love, story of one night. Sweet. :)
What is most romantic to me is that having the same taste of music is a start of love in this story!
Taste of music is really important to me. haha

Michael Cera is so cute anyway! He looks like a nerd. :) I like nerds who are creative...and have good tastes of music and movies. ahaha

Speaking of movies, I must admit that I'm a movie nerd. I just can't live without it! How can you imagine your life w/out movies? You can never do that! well...even if you do, that'd look really boring, right?
Many kinds of movies attract me, but more than anything, I like romantic young love movies just like Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. Bloody movies like Rob Zombie makes are good, and exciting movies like Guy Ritchie or David Fincher make are also good. The expression of "exciting movies" sounds lame tho. lol
I just don't know how to call such a kind of movies in English. :/

I have to mention about Shaun of the Dead! It's one of my most favourite movies..which is derected by my fav director Edgar Wright, and starred by my fav comedians Simon Pegg and Nick Frost!
I can keep talking about the movie til somebody slaps me to make me shut up. lol
Hot Fuzz is funny as well, but I prefer Shaun of the Dead for sure. :3

I saw a trailer of Public Enemies starring Johnny Depp on the TV today. It seems interesting. I wanna see that as well!
Can you believe that DVD of Public Enemies are already in store in America? I think I'm always saying these words when I talk about movies but...

That's Not Faire!

AWKWARD

I'm just so awkward when a guy I like is around. That's childish, but I can't do anything with it. :(
When he's around, I suddenly get worse at communication. I wish there was a way to break such a clumsy habit..I sometimes can't even say "Hi" to him naturally..that's kinda funny tho, cause it sounds like as if I'm an elementary school kid. ahaha
Oh I just found that if you google 'bad at communication', a question of "why are men so bad at communication?" will come up on the top. I'm pretty sure that I'm way worse at communication than men are, even though I'm studying cross-cultural relationships and international communication!

So, like I said in the last post, I skipped the French class! ♥ Skipping classes feel good, I like it. haha

I'm looking for songs to cheer me up. The Kooks are good, and Lenka and Kate Walsh have cute songs that are enough to make me happy!