Yes. Thank you.

I've been trying to keep away from facebook now. It's tough. haha The Blood Brothers really got me now. I bought Crimes and Young Machetes of The Blood Brothers and also Take Me To The Sea of Jaguar Love today. Johnny's voice is addictive. Want something to forget the feeling I've got! I don't want it to grow anymore. e.n.o.u.g.h.

My heart is really about to shatter. :(

love music lovers

I have some friends who loooove music and know way more bands than I do. I love talking with them and also love it when they tell me their favourite bands and let me listen to their music! Recently I've heard about some bands from my friends and I got interested in Jaguar Love! I actually listened to some cool other bands through their ipod or cool music player, but I forgot what their names are..I should ask them to list up their recommendatory bands for me ne. haha Johnny (singer from Jaguar Love) has a really unique voice and I used not to be a fun of his voice since I first listened to The Blood Brothers, but somehow, I'm totally into his voice now! His voice is really addictive and I can't go through a day without listening to his beautiful voice..what a big change. haha On monday, I found a vinyl of Jaguar Love 'Take Me to the Sea' at Time Bomb record in Shinsaibashi and it was really calling my name to take it home..but I gave up cause it costs about 2,300 yen and I didn't have much money at that time. :( I bought 'Nouns' by No Age for 1,980 yen though. haha I think I'll get the CD instead. Jaguar Love seems to sound better on CD than vinyl. I think so for no reason. :P

I'm listening to some songs out of Jaguar Love and The Blood Brothers on YouTube before I go to sleep! Johnny Whitney and Shaun White are my fads at this moment.<3

Make it positive

Brooding about something that hasn't even happened yet is a stupid thing, but I tend to do that. I'm just like a depressed teenage girl. haha Well, I just said bye to my teen last month though. It's been raining out there lately and cold like England or other european countries and it makes me down again...so that I might be able to write a gloomy but romantic novel. This is just my image though that such weather gives people much time to stay in their houses and also to imagine or create stories and new thoughts in their heads. That's why there are many well-known poetries and writers for melancholy writings in europe. Haha, this is also an imagination coming out of my head with gloomy feeling because of the weather though. I need the shineful sun! and make me smile pleaaaase. I need the sun anyway, then I can be more positive about anything that's happening around me now. :)

Polaroid

I've been into Dash Snow who was a photographer. He died at 27 last year. He took pics only with his polaroid and I really like it. I like taking pics with film cameras or instant cameras rather than digital ones and above all other film or instant cameras, I've got a special admiration to Polaroids. somehow. haha Fortunatelly, it's coming back this year and I can get one for myself! I don't know when Polaroid One are put on sale yet, but once it came out, I'm gonna get it anyway..and be a girl's version of Dash Snow. ahaha

His pics are not something like special or extremely amazing, and also I don't think he used a particular trick to take pics. He just took what he wanted. I don't know if he really was like that though. haha He seemed to be a loser and self-destructed just like a rock star. Addicted to alcohol, drugs and sex, then he left this world because of overdose. Heroin took his life. He somehow reminds me of Kurt Cobain. Maybe it's because he died at 27 leaving his wife and child here. I'm curious about him now.. :)

Limit

Everything has its limit. I wondered why I always chose something that has limit, but I found that everything has its time. In my case, the time comes earlier than...average. I don't know what the average is though. haha I'm just sad that some friends are leaving Japan in two and half months. I know I should enjoy this moment with them, but the fact makes me sigh. How amazing it would be if this moment last forever. :( It's not only about them but also me, cause I'm going to England from this summer for about one year if everything goes well. There's no time to hesitate or change my mind now. I just gotta keep going for my dream, and I'm gonna see new faces and make new friends at every moments in my life. Nobody is good at the last or saying "Bye". The sound of the phrase "Let's keep in touch" is so fragile. Ah, life really is a span. I strongly agree with it.

Is there any boy that never leaves me? haha